[Eren used to hate that question - How are you feeling? - get angry at it. He doesn't feel angry now, but there's still no way of answering. He doesn't feel anything, or he feels everything - both at once, somehow, and not at all. His mind makes no sense. His heart makes no sense. It's something he's never been able to explain. Not to anyone.
[So he doesn't answer. Not that question.]
A lot has changed. That's true.
[Luz. Kind-hearted, he recalls. He also recalls that every time he spoke to her, it felt like deception. She really doesn't know the type of person he truly is. Neither does Aubrey, Thorfinn - a lot of people. Without knowing what he's done, how could they? He used to fear what they'd think; doesn't anymore, but isn't eager to get into that particular topic. It's over now. Let it be over.
[If she wants to go on thinking he's whoever she thinks he is, fine. It will be easier that way; that, and anyone here who realizes he's a monster might well interfere with what he's planning to do.
[Can't have that.]
You've been with her, haven't you? [The question comes on suddely - he'd meant to change the topic, latch onto whatever he could hold first.]
no subject
[So he doesn't answer. Not that question.]
A lot has changed. That's true.
[Luz. Kind-hearted, he recalls. He also recalls that every time he spoke to her, it felt like deception. She really doesn't know the type of person he truly is. Neither does Aubrey, Thorfinn - a lot of people. Without knowing what he's done, how could they? He used to fear what they'd think; doesn't anymore, but isn't eager to get into that particular topic. It's over now. Let it be over.
[If she wants to go on thinking he's whoever she thinks he is, fine. It will be easier that way; that, and anyone here who realizes he's a monster might well interfere with what he's planning to do.
[Can't have that.]
You've been with her, haven't you? [The question comes on suddely - he'd meant to change the topic, latch onto whatever he could hold first.]
Aubrey. You cared for her. [Right?]